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Some monsters exist purely for good, similar to Sully and Mike in Monsters Inc., always there to protect Boo from all of the bad monsters surrounding her. However, not all of the monsters that we create are bad. Keys in hand, I was opening the door on my new life. When I found my voice, I was given the keys to let the shame, fear and guilt monsters go. When a secret isn’t a secret any longer, the power is returned to you. By talking openly about my experiences, the unwanted creatures no longer received sustenance to thrive inside of me. It was the moment my secret was set free, that my shame, fear and guilt monsters were let out of their cages, no longer holding me hostage.
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At the time, I was unaware of how to rid my house and myself of these monsters. As I was suffering, these monsters were gaining strength. Unhealthy coping processes fed those beasts, providing them with shelter and keeping them well fed. The monster, whose secret I was keeping, continued to grow strong and powerful, along with my internal monsters of guilt and shame. And just like the storybooks, these dragons are not so easy to slay. The internal beasts of shame, guilt, anxiety and fear. And sometimes, this creates monsters inside of us. Sometimes, monsters like mine live in our homes, offices, churches, schools, or other places where we should feel safe, and where our children should feel safe. My childhood longed for skinned knees and broken dishes, as I was left to fend for myself, against the monster inside my house. My safe space became the danger zone, and I was the target. This monster tormented me, consuming me with fear, in a place where I was meant to feel warmth and love.
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An ugly monster in disguise, as someone I could trust. A monster whose secret I kept hidden, giving it life. I grew up with a monster inside my house. Unfortunately, this was not my experience. Your greatest worry should be an upcoming spelling test, or how to tell your parents that you broke a glass dish. Your worst pain should be a skinned knee, or maybe a broken bone, falling from a backyard tree you climbed. As a child, you are supposed to know nothing but innocence and joy, in a home bursting with love.